Analysis of Motion, 2018: fineliner on paper; 60cm x 42cm

I am looking for a way tell my story. I want to show you who I am, but I’m not sure I know who that is.

My work explores the possible connections between my current and past selves, and the role of memory in the narrative of our lives. It plays with the perspective of being a twin: always together yet always separate.

Working with my family photographs, I realised that my internal narrative of my own life bore little apparent connection to the events in the photographs. We experience the passage of time through the movement from one moment to another, building the narrative of our lives from the chain of events. But there was so much I did not remember. I felt like a stranger to my own life-story.

We all select: we remember, then we forget, and we forget that we have forgotten. Every time we remember, we select again, putting the fragments together differently. Some of us have more fragments to work with than others. But the forgetting, the gaps, the uncertainties and the not-knowing can create space for a new version of our self narrative. It is precisely what I don’t know or remember that allows for the (re)construction of myself in the present.

One of the things I kept forgetting was that I had studied archaeology for my first degree. I am recreating a new past from signs, traces, juxtapositions and interpretations – a history without words.